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August 20, 2009
Pissed Angry Fustrated/ 11:39 PM Today is an off day. Today is a rainy day. Today mom on leave. Today sis no school. Today bro no school. Today dad brought us to jacks place. Today feels like a Sat. Today i'm not going out. Today i'm feeling pissed. Today i'm feeling fustrated. Today i feel like sleeping the whole day. Today i wanna shout at someone. Today is a bad day. D= |
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July 13, 2009
PATAPON!!/ 7:55 AM Wooooo Wu Woooo Woooooo Wu Woooooo... Pata Pata Pata Pooonnnn... Pom Pom Pom! Lol. Geez i'm dead tired. Saturday confined. Picked rubbish. Played basketball alone. Slack. Pick rubbish. Slack. Play PSP. Sleep. Sunday confined. Missed home. Missed Darling. Felt like AWOL-ing. Super sian-edzxzxzxzzzz... "Oh there are grass covering the rocks used as decoration for the Boat. Pluck out the grass so we can see the rocks" (Rocks which no idiot in the world would go look at) Well so, Plucked grass. Plucked weeds. Plucked ant nest. Pluck spiders. Pluck bugs. Pluck houseflies. Plucked my nail out in the meantime. Felt like plucking my hair too. *SIAN! Pluck Pluck Pluck.. Got sunburnt. Got bites. Got cuts. Got work done at last. Raymond sms : Raymond: Wanna eat anything? I coming camp now. Me: Ok. Just any noodle stuff. Raymond no reply. *He bought WanTon Mee.* Kian Ping sms. KP : Wanna eat anything? I coming camp now. Me : Ok. Just any noodle stuff. KP : Ok. *He bought me Hokkian Mee* Raymond came to camp with wanton mee. Kian Ping came to camp with hokkian mee. Me : ........................... Raymond : ........................ Kian Ping : ............................ Leonard was with Raymond. Bought many packs of instant noodles. Lol ate like mad. Thanks to them for staying in with me on sunday night. Raymond. Leonard. Houson. Anyway, today, Monday. Super sian. Woke up went life run. Took attendance. Went to Houson store to rest. Got caught. All 8 of us. E-mail sent "Please Extra or Confine". Boss receive E-mail = GG. Confirm Extra. Staff might give Confinement. *I haven't finish clearing mine.* 25th one more. IF confined, most prob is on 18th. (BIRTHDAY!!!!) ROAR!!!! Jas mom not letting her stay on friday night. Don't know what will happen now. Tomorrow ICT. Bob Pissed. Stressed. Sianed. Lost. Emo. What shd i do? Haiszxzxzxzzz... But at least i got to book out today. Saw Jas. Felt much much better.. Thanks babe. <3 Oh ya, talk abt booking out. Bloody wasted hell lot of time. Pissed off. FUCKING idiot. Took my 11-B and Camp pass. Cause got confined the day before. Dun wan return me. Say busy. I can't book out. Need wait till 7pm. Time was 5.30pm.. Meeting Jas at 6pm. Fuck off man. Jibai. Dun give me, still guai lan me. Got rank big fuck? Also from his mum's ..... come out what. Fucking idiot. No balls shout at me infront of me. Turn his back and shout " I don't owe u anything!" Fucking idiot took both my pass still say dun owe me. Dumb shit. Anyway, I'M TIRED!!! GOOD NIGHT BITCHES! |
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July 06, 2009
HOHOHO!!/ 8:00 AM LOL I'M BACK TO BLOG!!!! YAY MORE INTERESTING THINGS THAT HAPPENED THESE FEW DAYS! SHOPPING Got 300 bucks to go shopping from mom. Bought a pair of shoes for 35. 2 SpongeBob Boxers for 25. (Super Cute) Dinner for 50 at Tonkichi. (Was asked to go back to work when i ORD. Lawls) Rest of the cash in my wallet for next week's shopping. ( If i could.. D=) TODAY. 0530Hrs. Phone Rang. Houson: Hello, Wake up la ME: OK. Wake up liao...... Went toilet brush teeth. Finish brushing. Grandma came to use toilet. Pissed off. Didn't bath. *Went back to lie on bed for 5 mins Phone Rang. "Hello WHERE ARE YOU!" See time, 0714Hrs. OMFFFFFGGGGZZZZZ.... Late for Life Run. Parade State submitted. DIE!!! Spider King called. SK: Where are you?. ME: On my way to camp. SK: WTF!?. ME: Wad la. you leh? Where are you?. SK: Oh i woke up late, gonna report sick. ME: ............ ME: Ok then. Bye i going camp. SK: Serious? ME: Ya... Called Stephan. ME: Hello where are you? SP: Home. Gonna report sick. Woke up late. ME: ............. Spider King oso reporting sick. SP: LOL. You lei? Where are you? ME: On my way to camp. Woke up late too. SP: LMAO. Ok lo. Bob not in camp.. ME: Why? SP: NDP MORNING Time Off. ME: Orh. Ok. Cya then. Called Bob..... No Answer... Stephan and spider king reporting sick.. Both woke up late.. Very tempting... Thought to myself " Bob morning off, afternoon around. Go back help him" Boarded bus. Reached camp. Phone rang. Clerk: Hello Sylvester ah. Where are you? ME: In Camp. Clerk: Ok. Staff Harley looking for you. ME: Ok... (Die Liao) Staff: Where were you this morning? ME: At home. Staff: Why were you late? ME: *Very Stupidly said* "Woke up late" Staff: For no particular reason. ME: Ya. Staff: Ok. Go sign 3 confinement. ME: ........................................... -__-ll Staff: This Saturday and Sunday come back camp stay in. Next one on 25th. ME: Ok... ( For the sake of july 18th...) *Signed* Morning off 1000Hrs. No sign of Bob. 1100Hrs. No sign of Bob. 1200Hrs lunch time. No sign of Bob. 1300Hrs Roll Call. No sign of Bob. 1400Hrs. No sign of Bob! 1500Hrs. No sign of Bob!! 1600Hrs. No sign of Bob. 1700Hrs. Bob nowhere to be seen. 1800Hrs Time to go home. STILL NO BOB AROUND!!!!!!!!!!!! . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . Worked like mad in the afternoon. Covered Spider King's work as well. _l_ u 8 legged freak. Sians. Should have reported sick. Went to camp for Bob. Bob didn't appear. Need cover spider's work. Kena confinement. Heng Birthday not affected. There goes my weekend to plan for 18th. HOW? If Boss sees Routine Order..... means.. 3 confinement + 3 Extras................................... Sians. Made the right decision by going back. For the first time, played the nice guy. Got a nicer reward for the weekends. My fault for oversleeping. But... Doesn't seems right. Got punished for the right choice made. Lol? Contradicting isn't it? Took taxi just now. Chatted with driver. Apparently, the have to pay for the rental of taxi. 50 bucks for half a day, 100 for full. Fuel cost around 30 - 50 bucks. So prepare 100 bucks for payment, rest of the money goes into your pocket. Lol. So do they earn much..? O.o |
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June 12, 2009
Sucks To Be Me. =(/ 4:18 AM How bad can a day get? This is just gonna be short and simple. PISSED! Got duty on Friday and Sunday. This post is starting from Friday. Left camp at 1400. Reached home, prepared, left at 1500 to Pioneer MRT to take bus to TGUL camp. Went down to buy bubble tea and withdraw cash. Queued up FUCKING LONG to withdraw cash before i realised i left my fucking wallet at HOME. Went home to get it, came down again, 30 mins passed. Got my cash and drink. Went to bus stop. MISSED MY BUS! Waited another 10 mins. Bus came. Took 40 Mins get to Woodlands MRT. Time is 16.20. Took MRT to Pioneer MRT. Reached at 1700. (Supposed to arrive at camp) (Duty Time) Alighted from train. Went the fucking wrong way to the wrong bus stop. Wrong direction. Crossed the Overhead bridge, missed the fucking bus again. Waited around 7 mins, bus came. NO AIR CON. ARGH! Reached Camp at 17.35. LATE FOR 35 MINS! Couldn't get in camp. Cause, forced to collect ration from Tuas Navel Base, 4 Bus Stops away. Went all the way there with alot of drama and shit and finally got the rations. Came back AND I THOUGHT IT WAS ALL OVER! JUST A BAD DAY NOTHING MUCH! Office Called, ""Sylvester? You're involved in mob activation tomorrow at TGUL camp. Your name's in the list" ........ Put it simply. 1) Duty's SUPPOSED to be till 0900Hrs on Saturday. 2) Mob = Saturday, Prepare in the morning, Start in the evening, end at night? End at 2300 if we're lucky? 3) Sunday duty at 0900Hrs till monday 0900Hrs. So 1 + 2 + 3 = Stay at TGul Camp For 3 Days 3 Nights? AND NO ONE FUCKING INFORMED ME ABOUT MOB UNTIL I'M IN CAMP DOING DUTY! WOW!!! THANKS!!! ^_^v So how bad can a day go? Not bad for me. =D |
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April 01, 2009
Lost again....?/ 6:00 AM What a joke.. My last proper entry was so many months ago.. Many thanks to those who still visit my blog although it's been dead for so long. Was on my way home from sengkang after dinner just now when the thought of blogging suddenly came to me. I'm feeling so emo. Once again, i feel that life's so boring and meaningless.. But at least i see a little "thing" to look forward to to go to camp for now.. First, i went into a relationship which i gave up later due to my selfishness, hurting the other party so badly. Second, all i did was play with MCs for the past few months to avoid camp which is totally so slack and practically nothing to do everyday. Third, even when i'm in camp, i seldom help out with work to be done and spend my day slacking around.. I didn't even care much about what's happening in my family.. Not that i don't wanna care.. I'm just spending everyday looking forward to nothing and i wake up each morning with emptiness in my head.. to the extend that i don't even know what's happening around me.. Maybe that's just a sad excuese.. who knows.. I met her in around january.. She was so hyperactive and cheerful as i first knew her.. As the days pass, i got to know the other side of her as problems arise and discussions are needed.. Time passed and she made me feel that i can't live without her. The amount of care, concern and love that she showered me with are that i've never felt before. Maybe i felt inferior that i couldn't give ANYTHING at all and used NS as an excuese for whenever whatever problem arise. So much so to the extend that one fine day i realised i'm such a useless bastard. She stood by me all these while with love, care and concern that never seems to fade. I couldn't live life like that anymore and i selfishly, cruelly broke her heart. I'm sorry i'm such a sad bastard. She's right when she said " You don't wanna face life and just hide behind a world of games to avoid reality. When will you grow up and face all these problems like a man..? You complain about so many things in your life but you don't wanna do anything about it when you actually can." I'm trying so hard to change now but i just seem to lack the determination and reslove to do it. Just so afraid that one day i'll jump and end this pathetic life. It's what my army friend would call "fucked-up". I don't see anything to look forward to now.. Until today maybe, it seems that spending time out with my camp mates made me unknowingly build a bond with them which is the one and only reason i look forward to going to camp.. I just wanna thank them although i know i'm as fuck up as i describe others to be and/or maybe worst than them, that they still stood by and support me as we struggle our everyday in camp. I took up night classes for Diploma in "Tourist and Hospitality" in TMC which will commence on april the 8th. Pray, wish and hope that i don't screw this up. Like always, my parents are supporting me all the way. I don't wanna disappoint them again... Labels: Emo and Lost |
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March 17, 2009
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October 18, 2008
BMT STARTS~!!/ 8:53 AM After 1 month of IPPT phrase, BMT finally starts. Just a brief summary of what happened these past 2 weeks.. Life Firing Had life firing of SAR21. Many said that it's almost impossible to not get marksmanship with this rifle. But i did the impossible. I managed to be the 5 out of an entire platoon to not get marksmanship. Proves how good my aiming is, better watch out when you go to war with me. =D Anyway, my hearing seems to have gotten worst after life firing..... IPPT Category Test The last time we had our IPPT category test. My results were quite disappointing, but to be expected sinced i had been slacking the past 2 years. Haha. Results were as followed. -SitUps 30 -SBJ 207 -Chinup 5 -Shuttle Run 9.9secs -2.4 km 14.31 After about 1 month of training or so.. The results improved a little i guess... -SitUps 25 -SBJ 225 -Chinup 9 -Shuttle Run 9.7secs -2.4 km 12.18 Broke my platoon record of lowest number of sit ups. xD (MY SITUP SUCKS) Road March First time had 3km road march with FBO (Full Battle Order). FieldPack weigh a tonn along with LVP and rifle. After that was 4km.. Continued to 6km... 6km alone was hectic enough man. Imagine doing 24km during POP.. X_X 1302 That's my 4D number in BMTC. Platoon 1 Section 3 Bed 02. Became section IC after bed one was posted out due to his BMI in the high range. Became Book in / Book out IC all of a sudden and i didn't even know how. Was Parade State IC ever sinced i came in to BMTC. Section IC is nothing much. Just have to take care of the section making sure that the bunk is cleaned properly, section marching from point to point in straight line etc etc... Book in/out IC, just make sure everyone who's supposed to sign out actually signed their names before booking in or out. Parade State IC is totally fucked up. Every time one idiot report sick, i have to record their names onto the section's office board for reference. Ever sinced those with high BMI were posted out, i had to update many other OOTS ( Out Of Training) cause they have problems like back problems, skin problems etc etc... The problem doesn't lies with updating or what. It's just that the number is getting fucking ridiculous. From a platoon of approximately 45 strenght, dropped to about 35 who's physically fit enough for training. If there really is about 10+ people with so many problems, i'm sure CMPB would have checked carefully before posting them to PES A / B in this company right? They can smoke their life away without being scared of having lung cancer or throat cancer. But training a little more will break their backbones or maybe crack their skulls... Just giving me more and more things to do everyday.. Fuck off Assholes._l_ Depression Okay now this word actually means alot to me. I've been feeling depressed this whole fucking long week. Everynight lying in bed thinking of stuffs that i did and those that i didn't do. Thinking why is life so unfair. Thinking why do we have to serve NS. Thinking WHERE HAVE ALL MY FRIENDS GONE TO??... Looking forward to book out every week. But every book out turned out disappointing. Didn't do things that i've planned and actually screwed up my weekends. Why is that so? BECAUSE THERE'S FUCKING NO ONE TO ACCOMPANY ME TO DO ANYTHING!! WHERE HAVE EVERYONE GONE TO!!?????? It totally brings my mood down to minimal level to think that booking out is solely for the sake of booking out. Nothing to look forward to after booking out. Book out for the sake of not staying in that island another day more than i have to. And the next day we have to book in again. What life is this.. Totally sucks.. Depression.. Actually had a guy who kiwi-ed his boots for a freaking 4 hours non-stop. Was sent to IMH soon after that for depression.. Downed his PES to E and he'll be OOT too. That i have to update too... =.= Hais.. Leisure I wanna watch movie. I wanna go k-box. I wanna go out with my friends to eat to play to go wild. I wanna do many things.. But it's only all i can say.. as no ones there to do all these with me.. I'm certified a loner.. And i guess after the next batch of OOT gets posted out.. I'll be a loner in NS too for the next 2 months till POP... |
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September 01, 2008
I Don't Understand!!/ 5:38 PM Woo, went Tonkichi to eat last nite with wei xiang (Crystal) till so damn full. wakaka. Nice meal. The person serving me even nicer. Hahas. =P After the meal feel so bloated and tired that i went straight home to sleep. Juz woke up now. Kinda early for me today. xD I realised my money spend super fast. lols. The way it flies is like in chunks. Not small amounts. Only got $500 for this month's salary. Spent $250 on play, eat and transport. $100 for dad's birthday treat. And now i'm only left with $400 including my monthly allowance of $300. Gotta learn to save up when i enter NS 9 days from now. Don't know how it's gonna be like. Take it as a training program to build up and gain weight, Hahas. Anyway, i seriously don't understand something. First of all, whenever i go on an outing, i'll never ask those people studying or exams around the corner out with me. Second, i choose carefully who i actually hang out with and so i don't make stupid mistakes like hanging out with wrong groups of friends. Last of all, i personally feel that i'm a rather nice guy in a sense that i don't lead others astray. So WHY IS IT THAT WHENEVER OTHER PEOPLE ASK ME OUT AND I AGREE, THEIR MOTHER WILL CALL ME UP AND KAO BEI KAO BU~!!????? Last time it was Quek's mom. He's the only child and his mom is a super paranoid and i understand that so i just gave in to whatever she said. But he's already like 18 yrs old at that time? Can't give him more freedom? 2 years from then, i'm not as close with him anymore as in we don't hang out as often. So that stops his mom's nagging and stuff. And now, 2 years later. Wei xiang asked me out to "destress" from his studying as he's taking his "A" lvl this year. He seldom ask me out so i agreed. Get this point, " I DON'T ASK PEOPLE OUT WHEN THEY ARE STUDYING. I DIDN'T SAY I WON'T AGREE TO GO OUT WHEN THEY ASKED ME." There's a big difference there. Anyway, after he asked me out, i don't know how in the world his mom actually got my number. She called me and actually ask me to not go out with him. The conversation was like, WxMom : Helllo, is that sylvester? (She speaks chinese) Me : Yes, Who's this? WxMom : Oh, hello. I'm Wei Xiangs mom hor. Can i ask you not to go out with my son? Me : HUH? WxMom : WeiXiang is having his A level this year and it's very crucial for him. So can i please ask you not to go out with him?? Me : .............................. WxMom : Hor? Hor. Ok ah. Thanks hor. Sorry to call you ah. Please don't tell WX i called you. And she hung up. Seriously, i ignored that call. Simply because that's a stupid thing for me to do and cause i didn't ask your son out. He asked me out madam. And he said he needed to take a break and destress also. According to him, he's not a monster who can keep studying for 3 months like his mom wants. At first i didn't tell Wx that his mom called as she told me not to + if i did, they'd sure have another commotion about his mom calling me. After a few hours, the phone rang again -.- This time it sounded unfriendly... >:( WxM : Hello Sylvester? I thought i told you to not go out with my son??? How come you can't understand that? He's having his exams soon and i don't want him to run about. I want him to concentrate on his studies!! Why can't you just leave my son alone?????? Please please i beg you just let my son off. Next time got chance i will invite you to my house as a guest ok? OK. Me : ( Seriously, i don't even wanna talk to you about this. You being a mom like that would never listen anyway.) ............. As usual, she hung up. Although i was keeping quiet, i was damn pissed. First of all, I DIDN'T CALL YOUR SON OUT. HE ASKED ME OUT. Secondly, IF YOUR SON IS HAVING EXAMS, THEN LOCK HIM HOME IF YOU DON'T WANT HIM OUT OF THE HOUSE. Thirdly, IF YOU'RE SCARED THAT YOUR SON IS HANGING OUT WITH THE WRONG GROUP OF FRIENDS THAT WILL LEAD HIS ASTRAY, THEN DON'T GIVE HIM ANY ALLOWANCE. AND LASTLY, DON'T FUCKING CALL ME IF YOU CAN'T CONTROL YOUR SON. IT'S YOUR OWN FUCKING FAULT THAT YOUR SON NEEDS A BREAK FROM YOUR CONSTANT NAGGING AND THAT YOU MISUSE THOSE INFORMATION YOU GOT FROM HIM LIKE CALLING HIS FRIENDS AND HARRASSING THEM ABOUT YOU NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTROL YOUR SON. THAT'S YOUR FAMILY MATTER AND I DON'T FUCKING CARE AT ALL. I just fucking told weixiang everything after that and i'm sooo damn pissed i tell you. She's my friend's mom and i know she's concern about what he's doing and who he's hanging out with. Of course his studies is as important to her as anything else. You're a mom, i understand. So what? I got my mom too. And i don't see my mom degrading herself to the point of MAYBE stealing numbers from cellphones that has records of other people's number and calling my friends making a scene that doesn't concern them at all. Yea you can say because my mom doesn't care as much. But that isn't true. She cares as much as any other mom cares about her child. Maybe much more for that case. For that but not only that, i love my mom and my family alot. At least they know the meaning of privacy and freedom and don't do things that xia suay them or me in any case. And i dare say compare to many other parents that i know, my parents are the best. Strict, but good. I can take them as friends or parents. They can live with both. Many out there, can you do the same? No offence not trying to insult other people's mom but i just wanna prove that there's a difference in how moms behave even if their thinking are the same. Srry Weixiang, maybe i gave a very bad impression of your mom from this. But i'm sure you know what i mean. Maybe i'll say sorry to your mom too. Over here. But i doubt she'll see it. =P Well anyway, i'm gonna go down have my breakfast and forget about this incident. It's a new day, new start. xD |
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August 13, 2008
NS Approaching... Friends depleting... Haiis../ 8:55 AM Geez.. Have been spending the past few weeks working and playing and fooling around. Realised that there isn't much thing for me to do now other than working and playing. Kinda boring life yea.. When i think about it, i'm mostly alone. Apart from my friends who are schooling or working. Haven't got what i would call " Fixed Party" of friends. Got to know a few guys from the lan shop. Actually, 2 guys. Though i don't really consider that hanging out with them would stabalise this friendship, they are always with me. Almost everyday. Was lying on my bed thinking of what would i do when NS comes. How would it be like. Will i be able to take it? I got answer to none of them. Instead, i suddenly thought of how lonely i would be the first few weeks when i enter NS. Yes i admit i'm scared of loneliness. Very scared. I don't think i can actually live alone when i grow up. Even if i do not get married, i can never live alone. And that thought linked to how many friends i actually got. My friends used to ask me " Heys, why is it that you're got so many friends?" I'll just simply shrug my shouders and give them a smile. When i think back, i don't really have many friends. There're times i feel that i'm so lonely, so bored. Nothing to do at all. That life is totally meaningless. But apart from all those thoughts, i realised that, i'm never alone. What i thought is that i really haven't got any friends to accompany me. But in reality, there's always someone there with me to get me through my day. It's not the same person with me everytime. When i look back, there's always a person hanging out with me. It's like it's all planned out that i would never be alone to spend my day. If asked to discribe, i'd say it's like a childcare centre with teachers taking shift to look after the kids. Whereas i'm the kid, they're the teacher. Well anyway, i'm glad that i had those friends there with me. Those that were my friends, was my friends and are still my friends, i thank you. Lost contact with many of them now. Distance grew as time passes. I really miss all of them. Wished i had a chance to get back to the past like we were before. Left less than a month before NS, Gotta cherish whatever time i have left before i go in. Ns for me, End Of Play Time. |
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August 02, 2008
Mr. Quek Jin Yuen/ 12:19 PM Ha. My last post was in june 18. that's recently right? it's within half a month, so it's not considered very long that i didn't post =). Well anyway, decided to come here after reading Quek's blog.. Back to your emo state again? Some things juz never change yea? You're really so much like me. Those things that you think about, those things you said. It ran through my mind too recently. Made me realise how close we were and those time we spent together retaining. Although it sucks but still we got that Ong Shit at that time. Though he behaves like a bastard and is actually one, he ain't that bad when we retained. Dun think so much abt sec days le. No point. Make new frenz, good! Look at the amount of comments you got in ur tag box. Those encouragement from your poly friends. How long have you known them? How long have you known me? Compare these 2. And see the difference that we make. They're able to do things that i can't. They can help you up when you're down. I can only go further down with you. That brings us no where right? I'm going NS in like September? We most probably won't be meeting for hell of a long time. So stop being so emotional. Can't find people to talk to, call me. I'm always free. (before i go NS) Otherwise, go find Rice. Or Bitch. They'll hear you out i'm sure. As for your mom, get use to it. You've got to live with her for at least another 5 years. So don't bother so much about her. I know how bad can her nagging gets. =) We haven't contacted in months now. Don't really know how you're coping. I'm doing fine so far. Other than your emotional problems, hope you are too. I know maybe you're thinking, "Ah crap forget it, talking to my poly friends ain't gonna help. They won't understand. They'll try to cheer me up or comfort me but they still don't understand me" "Don't wanna bother Ed sinced he juz entered poly not long and so long no contact Syl. Maybe he won't give a shit about me at all. Don't bother him." But hey, i'm still here ok. Remember those times we used to talk on the phone and the things we chat about, you'll understand what i mean. You're still my friend and will always be. Maybe those things i say sounds gay. lols. But still, read it over and you can sms me if you want. Going slp now. Tired. Nites and Take Care Alwayzz |
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March 31, 2008
4.44/ 4:44 PM Total crap. I just wasted 1 whole darn day on the bed dreaming of a stupid thing. Just woke up now and the first thing that came to my mind was, "WTF! How in the world can i wake up so late?" And the answer came to me straight away.. Maybe it's that i got no plans for the day and so i didn't plan on waking up any earlier.. Just slept the day through.. But waking up at 4.44 is juz... Well, what you guys call "Pig". * <)"."."(> * ( (oo) ) '') * (,,) Well anyway, to all who's going for the chalet, it's on the 8th to 11th of april at DownTown East. Will inform you guys of timing and exact location ASAP. Still got many things left undone... Sorry to those who can't make it on weekdays coz of school.. I didn't want it to be on a weekday too. But seems that weekdays are more... suitable for me. =\ Well, gonna go wash up now and have my lunch then go out and havoc. Hahas. Cya all~ Labels: Syl~ |
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March 26, 2008
Self Deception?/ 11:34 AM Lols. Have been waking up at 2pm for the past 1 week or so except for monday when i sent my brother to school. Don't know what's wrong with me. I actually woke up at 3.30pm today! WTF..! Hais.. As expected, i really gotta stay back in the darn school for god knows how long... But then, don't really think it's the teacher's fault that i didn't get the sms. There's many possibilities... Mum managed to call the school and found out that the teacher was actually trying to help us by putting months of work into a 3 hours schedule so that we don't have to stay back. (Seems quite impossible but he's able to do that.) The thing is, when i called the teachers on tuesday, i was told that the Section Head FORCED the teachers to key in the marks on friday which was 5 days before i was supposed to go back. So my guess is that the Section Head found out what the teacher was trying to do and felt that it totally sucks to help students like us. And so, he forced them to key in the marks on friday and made it impossible for the teachers to sms us. ( But the thing is, other students managed to recieve the sms on thursday.) Hais.. I'm also feeling quite stupid now... Maybe thinking that my guess is right would make me feel better. At least i know my teacher tries his best all the time to help me with so many things that he could have just ignored. For that, i choose to believe what i think.. But still deep inside me... it's just so unfair.......... |
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March 23, 2008
Have A Safe Trip/ 4:14 PM It's 7.15am now and the only reason i'm here blogging is because i simply can't get back to sleep. I just can't understand why is it that my parents don't feel safe for a perfectly healthy boy of age 11 to go to school on his own. Maybe the school's too far? Maybe the road's unsafe? Or maybe he's scared of taking the elevator alone? It can be any of the reasons but none of them seems valid to me. First of all, the school's just a 5 mins walk away. Secondly, the "road" which he's suppose to cross to school every morning is barely 4 metres wide. Yea so what does my brother going to school on his own has anything to do with me? Well because for the first time in maybe 2 years, i'm asked to wake up at 6.15am to overcome the trails of sending my brother to school. Imagine the trails that we have to overcome. Taking a elevator down 15 stories which might jam at anytime. Walking another 5 minutes to the school that seems to take eternity and Crossing a dangerous road of barely 4 metres while constantly looking right and left for any oncoming vehicles. That's so exciting yea? ^^ Was informed last month or so that my sis would be going to Vietnam for her school's study trip or something. Wouldn't be back till the 5th of April i suppose. So i'm blogging so early today's cause my parents and my sis's boyfriend are gonna send my sis off from the airport at 6am++. That leaves me the only one to be able to send my brother so school and now i'm back and Sooo awake typing this. I don't really mind sending him to school. Made me realised it's been so long sinced i woke up so early and stepped out of the house for some fresh air. The morning air still as nice as ever. Feels kindof great. Mum says she's gonna call the school later on to confirm everything. Everything seems to be anything to me now. I haven't heard from the school for a long time now and i already agreed with myself it's most probably i'll have to go back to school for those extra months. Hand really hurting badly. My parents are so gonna smash my head with the CPU if they knew i'm blogging now. Don't know how i got this swell near my right wrist. Dad said it's "over-use of mouse" and my mum says it's a "computer bug" that bit me. =.= Anyway, I'll take it as "overuse of cpu" since my hand's really starting to hurt from where i've blogged till. Guess i'll stop here for now and give my wrist some rest before it breaks off from my hand. =\ |
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March 22, 2008
No response/ 1:46 AM It's been 5 days sinced i recieved that darn SMS... Still haven't heard anything from the school... Sians.. Guess i'll really have to stay that extra 3 months in that darn school for nuts.. Thanks to all those assholes who didn't inform me about the date change although they knew it beforehand .......... hais.......... |
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March 19, 2008
Lost/ 9:15 AM Once again, i can't get to sleep.. And here i am, blogging crap. Somehow or other, managed to tell my parents about the news. Guess that's good news right? Said they would call up the school to talk about the issue. Well hopfully that helps as much as i hoped it would. Yeah i know some of you must be thinking "Wtf ? A 19 years old guy can't even settle a problem by himself?" That's true. But think about this, i'm still a "student" there as long as i'm not certified "Graduated" like it was supposed to be. So a student like me can't do much. Furthermore, that's what my parents are there for. Have been thinking about this. I've spent 5 years in secondary school, 1 which i wasn't even supposed to spent. Another 2 years in ITE (maybe an additional 3 months or so for a screwed up text message). Compared to my other schoolmates in secondary school, they're either in polytechnic, graduating soon or serving NS. Some had even started their own family. As for me, i'm neither here nor there. Thought i had things figured out these 2 years. But now there's this extra 3 months that i'm unsure of myself. I've wasted alot of time on things i should and shoudn't do. If truth be told, this 3 uncertain months are nothing compared to the amount of time i've wasted myself. I don't know what to do everyday now. Feel unsure of everything. If i managed to get a part time job, i might need to be back in school. If i don't get a job, i'll just rot away. Can't possibly be going out every single day. My parents don't owe a money copying machine. Even if they do, it's illegal. So can anyone give me suggestions...? Even now when i wanna sign in to msn, that fucking thing is not letting me. Geez.. Guess when you're down on luck everything goes down with it. Even my hp and PSP batteries are going down equally fast considering the fact that i charged them to 100% and didn't really play it. Well anyway, guess i just have to wait for my parents to settle this for me before i can do anything else. Meanwhile i'll still have to bear with people asking me when i'm graduating whenever they see me... |
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March 18, 2008
Trying Hard Isn't All There's To It Ehh.?/ 12:54 AM Lol don't really know the reasons myself, suddenly had a feeling i should start a blog. At least hopefully, i can share with whoever is reading, my thoughts, feelings and what's happening around me everyday. What a start to my day. I haven't slept almost the whole night just for this very day which i thought i knew was the last and most important day. Last wednesday i received a call from my teacher saying there's some incompleted work that i had to do before i left ITE in order to get my certificate. He told me the day was today 18/03/2008 that i had to go back to school to finish up whatever i left undone. So i was thinking, i spent 2 years in this school which wasn't as nice as i thought it would be, hoping to get a certificate (info-comm) at the end of the course to at least prove to myself that i'm not as useless as i am thought i am. Decided that today was the last day, although it's an extra journey to school, i didn't really mind, considering the fact that my attendance was undesirable from my previous traunt. I woke up at 7am which was way before my alarm went off, hoping to at least get a call from my teacher to confirm the timing which i was supposed to be in school. ( No, i did not receive any timing from my teacher beforehand.) Got out of bed at 7.45am and sat at the sofa waiting for that call that seems to take forever to come. Finally it came at 8am and i answered... Mr Samuel : Hello, Sylvester ah. Sylvester : Ya, Hm.. what time do i have to be in school today? Mr Samuel : We sent a sms to you last thursday you never receive meh? Sylvester : Huh!? What SMS~?? Mr Samuel : We sent a sms to you last week le. Told you the date for today's lesson was shifted to last friday. Sylvester : WTF~ How come i never receive it!? Mr Samuel : No one informed you about the lesson change? Sylvester : No one la. Why did you think i woke up so early today??? Mr Samuel : Aiyo.. They keyed in the marks for the module liao leh. Sylvester : Means What??? Mr Samuel : Means that you must retake the module loh. Sylvester : ........................... Mr Samuel : Aiya, i oso dunno how le. Cause the section head want's the marks to be keyed in by friday mahs. I try help you ask see can do anything about it or not then get back to you. Sylvester : ..... kies... Yea.. Kindof great eh. So for that period of time i sat there like an idiot waiting for an sms which hopefully tells me i can at least go back to school to complete my work today so i don't have to stay another f**king 3 months in that school to redo a whole module for an sms i didn't receive. Here's the next sms that he sent.. "I was just informed that the J2ME makeup class was shifted to last friday. And now the marks are already entered into the system. So you would need to redo the module when term starts. I will keep you informed of the detailed arrangements." I had no idea when but my dad helped me check my NS enlistment. Told me that it was in June. No idea when in june though. I was so hoping that i can spent this last 2 and half or 3 months smoothly doing what i want with no bumps and let it past happily before my enlistment. Guess it ain't gonne be as "smooth" as i hoped it would be and it definitely won't be the "last" and most "important" day of school like i thought it would be and should have been. Seriously i don't know how to put it though to my parents.. I've been thinking.. If the course ends in June before my enlistment, i'll just go to school quietly without (almost) anyone knowing. However, if it does crash with my enlistment.. i'll have to inform them about it.. Just imagine the reaction they'll have.. I mean.. retaking a module's for maybe another 3 months never gonna be anything good. But then it's not really my fault i didn't receive the sms rite? ~.~ Well anyway, guess i should stop here. Not really in the mood to continue blogging and my sis's watching S-pop repeat. i wanna watch too. ^^ Take care peeps~ |
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